Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Sigh

What a day!

The first class after Chinese Ney Year was CANCELLED!


Well, well, well!

It leads to a SAD ending......
That is, I am now sitting in the lab,

doing my ONLINE SHOPPING!


Who is the one going to sponsor my expenses??

Excuse me, anyone???


Anyway, I am going to have Accounting I in this afternoon.
I like the lecturer much.


He is a humorous guy and also an easy going lecturer.
The class is always in a RELAX mood,

A happy learning environment^^


I am still a relax girl in this semester,

going college 3 days per week,

another 4 days going back to Sibu~


LOL! Sure my mom will kill me!



It is such a shame that the longest duration in Kuching is.....
3 weeks!!!
So sorry......to Kuching!



I don't think I am an independent girl yet.
Keep going back, and still create lots of trobles to daddy & mummy......

I am always their little baby......

No.......

a GIGANTIC baby~





The GIGANTIC baby is growing up,
(Perhaps it is more toward on my IQ & EQ)
See you guys~ AND....
Happy New Year~
I deserve a joyful life, right?
I know it : )





Friday, January 20, 2012

多久……



有多久,没写下自己的心情日记了呢……
有多久,没有好好面对自己的心情呢……
有多久,没有好好开怀大笑呢……
有多久,没放慢脚步看看这世界呢……

有多久,有多久……
自己独自走了有多久……

有多久,有多久?
自己做了笨蛋有多久……

有多久,有多久!
自己遗忘了自己的梦想多久?

自己的付出,换来的只有一句:“对不起”……

无论有多久,那都过去了……
过去无论谁曾深深在我心上划过多刀的,
『就把礼物留在坛前,先去同弟兄和好,然后来献礼物。』马太5:24




我恨过……很过你们……恨过自己……
可是我得到的只有痛苦……
无法接近神……
无法入睡……
无法停止泪流……

灵修到以上的经文时,神的灵触摸了我,
尽管是深夜……我哭到无法自己……
怨恨是那么的深,是那么的讨厌自己……

“你失败了!你在神面前只是个无用,满身是罪的人!”

恶者的话一直打击我……我痛苦……
身边有太多人,能跟我们一起享乐,却不能一起承受痛苦……




神的爱却是充满恩典……
『我们若认自己的罪,神是信实的,是公义的,必要赦免我们的罪,洗净我们一切的不义。』
约翰一书1:9

我相信,我将会被神重建,成为祂的器皿。
我唯有祷告,祈求神不要让我再度经历这般的痛,
原谅不了自己的痛……
我是软弱的,唯有靠主才能在祂的道上站立得稳……

伤痛的心,由主的话抚平……
湿润的眼,由主的手擦干……

无论过去有多久……那都是过去……

未来……我的未来………
将与主同行……

我会跌倒。受伤,气馁……
但,我不怕……
神一直都在抱着我……
谢谢祢,阿爸父……
祢知道我爱祢……